Operation
Friday, 25 June 2010, 10:47 am
it was my first operation yesterday. i didn't receive one, but i gave one.
the patient's condition had been prolonged for a long time, finally this patient wanted to seek an end to the pain.
being an inexperienced surgeon, i had to take up my first operation. it was a big thing for me, and the patient trusted me. throughout the operation, there had been some mistakes but with my team of doctors, everything went fine.
not untill a moment where the patient's blood pressure shot up. i tried my best to control the patient's conditions, but to no avail. the blood loss was too much for the patient to take and we had our last resort. seal up the vessels and rearrange for another operation.
but little did we expect the worst to happen...... this patient perished in my hands.
the patient had a name. called love
Happy Fathers' Day
Saturday, 19 June 2010, 10:46 pm
i cried. it's been a long time since i did.
decided to resume blogging again, still the best way to express some of my feelings..
prelims are round the corner... 128 days to olvs 1wk to prelims
and i'm not fully prepared yet... in fact not really prepared at all.
suddenly feel the stress.... so much to study and so little time. should have prepared earlier.
left with history untouched, geography untouched (thought quite confident) biology and chemistry are so-so.. maybe a read through for recapping?
SS and history are big time headaches! just decided the themes/ chapters to study for history, and left with about 30% to study for SS.
Amaths! completed 7 prelim papers. still not confident :( sigh. emaths shouldn't be mush of a problem...
oh yea... i cried.
this morning, woke up and read today papers. saw some of the articles regarding fathers' day.
then... i just cried.
i thought of how much he went through for this family, monolingual, worked so hard for all these years, scars on his hands and arms, aches all over. i used to hate him alot since sec2, because of all the arguements etc.
but now, i come to think of it. i was so immature and foolish. how long more can he provide for this family? my mum doesn't work anymore..
i'm not sure if he has CPF or not. what if he falls sick one day?
alot went through my mind.... he just was not sure how to express his love to me... though i know he loves me alot.
i'll become a better son. a good doctor, to cure all is physical pain. though i may not be able to repay him, i shall start from now. start by studying hard to provide them with a good future. my mum smiled at me and asked me to relax seeing me putting os much effort in studies.
i want to be a son that my parents are proud of. i want to be a doctor that my parents are proud of.
i love you dad
